New Years Resolutions...

So I blew that in the first month.  Oh well right??  The bar is over which is why I have not been posting.  I don't think it is possible to explain the hell that is the bar exam to any one who has never done it.  So I have graduated law school which is awesome and means I have the letters JD after my name.  And in May I will get my diploma while wearing a poofy hat and a hood since I now have a doctorate.  The next step is passing the bar which I wont know about until May 8th.  Then finally I have to actually be admitted to practice.  The whole process is sheer horror :-) I can't wait for it to be over and I can start the job search as a full blown lawyer in the state of CT.


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Happy Sunday!!

8 Days and Counting Down...

The stress right now is unbelievable! I'm anxious for it to just get here, I'm petrified and want 3 more months to study, I'm excited to have time to craft again.  I am already browsing Ravelry to see what I had plans to work on.  Eyeing my wheel and the 3 bags of alpaca fiber I cant wait to spin. Spying the counted cross stitch for my favorite 8 year old that is soooooo close to being done.  My Etsy shop is so neglected and that jumper I cut out in October is not sewing itself.

I think the excited is winning out over the scared, petrified and anxiety.  I can still use whatever words of encouragement you may have for me.  Almost time to get it done!!!

Borrowing Strength...

I keep a little book by my bed titled, "Daily Reflections for Highly Effective People".  Today's first line is "Borrowing strength builds weakness."  Seems like a robbing Peter to pay Paul type of theory.  I sort of feel that way these days.  Do I take hours from the end of my day to study and got to bed really late or do I go to bed a little earlier and get up earlier.  I think for me right now the outcome is the same and until the bar exam is over in 40 days there is no alternative.

I do think in our daily lives we need to focus on not taking from Peter to pay Paul in all areas.  Taking our strength from one area of our lives for another results in weakness all around.  Rather strengthen yourself in all areas to best persevere.

I am failing a bit at my New Year's resolutions as I was determined to blog everyday and as the bar rapidly approaches that is not happening.  I will continue to work on the person I am and want to be however.  Today I am happy and content that my life is headed in a good direction.  I am moving forward and upward and I intend to stay that way.

Here's a great closing thought:

The mind is everything. What you think you become.  –Buddha

Think yourself wonderful!

Tell me I Can't....

Today's Barbri quote is "You want me to do something...Tell me I can't do it."  From the eloquent, articulate and amazing Maya Angelou.  I have been a fan of Ms. Angelou's since high school.  She was such an amazing write.  Her poem "Phenomenal Woman" rings in my ears constantly.  "I'm a woman. Phenomenally. Phenomenal woman.  That's me."

Today I will work harder than anything to be that phenomenal woman but I believe that the whole premise of her poem is that each of us is phenomenal simply for being ourselves.  For the way we care for the people around us, for the way we give of ourselves, for the way we fight everyday for the next day to be better.  That makes each of us a Phenomenal Woman.

How are you phenomenal?

If you aren't sure watch this amazing video....





We should all be screaming I'm Enough!

A mule into a horse....

"She would be a new person, she vowed. They said no matter how far a mule travels it can never come back a horse, but she would show them all."

Transformation. The quote on the Barbri page today is "If it doesn't challenge you, it doesn't change you." coupled with the above quote from my journal.  Hmmmmm are the cosmos trying to tell me something??  Its all about transformation.  Like a caterpillar turning into an elegant butterfly I will transform myself.  I will turn into the person I want to be, not the person my circumstances have made me.  I am constantly working towards a better place, a better existence, a better me.  I hope I continue on this path.

44 days until the bar exam.. I am actually reassured by my progress and results.  I did very well in Federal Civil Procedure, one less topic I have to focus hard on.  Always a silver lining right?

If you have a quote about change or an anecdote to help my change please feel free to share!

Can I Have a Do Over Please...

"If I had to live my life again, I'd make the same mistakes, only sooner." - Tallulah Bankhead

I love this quote.  This is perfect.  I was, shall we say, sheltered and "well behaved" through my high school years.  As I look back I feel as though I didn't do most of my living until college and I regret that to a degree.  So today I am working on living each day, good or bad.  I want to have no regrets in how I parent, the relationships I have or any other aspect of my life.  If I want something from a relationship, either platonic or romantic, I need to voice that want.  I want the people around me to know that they can do the same with me.  If you need something or want something I can provide, simply ask.

47 days until the bar exam....


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Until tomorrow...

From the Mouths of Babes...

So I asked my 13 year old son how he interpreted my closing quote from yesterday about conversations that matter.  He said, "Don't talk about small stuff, talk about big stuff." Reminds me not gossip, not to be petty and to focus on the important things in life: family, friends, good health and a sound mind.  These are likely the most valuable possessions I have.  So today I am working on starting big conversations.  I am also working on truly valuing what matters.  As I stood at an even for my son tonight I was reminded how large our support system is and I am so unbelievably thankful.  From the 18 year old soon to be Eagle, to the 30-something moms and dads to the 13 year old troop guides, they work as a team and support each member like they are family.  I couldn't ask for anymore than that.


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What are you working on today??